Ok these last six weeks have been beyond crazy. Can you believe I’m still struggling with the pain… Seems so surreal to me 😞.

Hopefully I’ve posted my other blog that I wrote weeks ago and your all caught up…. (Yeah, I know..who do I think I am lol).

So let’s begin….I have been very tired and stressed out. I’ve been dealing with discouragement and depression. Way more than normal…and if I hear one more person say “well you look good” I’m going to snap!! I know that people are just trying to be nice but just say something like “sorry to hear that, or my thoughts are with you….” Anything but that look good comment.

Geez!!!!!!

Sigh….sorry. Unfortunately, I think that my doctors think that. “Well she doesn’t look like she’s in pain”. The cardiologist told me that he can’t refill my pain meds because they feel like a person shouldn’t require them at this stage. HUH?? 😳😳😳😳 says who??? So I have to go to my primary care doctor who decides this would be a good time to get me off pain meds? For real??? 😳😳😳 they just don’t know how fortunate they are that I’m a Real Christian.

The old girl wants to come out & play 😁😁…prayer has kept her away. (So grateful for that Holy Spirit)!

I just don’t get the medical field. You know I’m in pain and that I already deal with chronic pain…..why in the heck would you change my meds in the middle of this storm?

Sigh….. Anyway this has been an experience I wouldn’t want anyone to have to go through.. It’s 3:00 in the morning and I’m up dealing with the pain as usual. I have three incisions and none of them like it when I lay down. Honestly there’s not much they do like. The worst is riding in the car…ugh!! I’m pretty sure Colorado has the most pot holes in the world!! 😁 ok maybe not the entire world but that’s what it feels like to me. Lol

So that about sums up my last 6 weeks…I’ve only went out 3 times, that wasn’t for a doctor appointment. I did get to see one of my little Ha!! He’s like 6’5 or something..like a giant lol cousins get married…it was a beautiful wedding and I had fun.

Hopefully and prayerfully my next post will be nothing but positive, happy, up building & encouraging words. Ummmm no strike that I know my next post will be all those things because I have hope and Faith

(And thank you for reading this….if u read this can u please leave me a comment telling me where your from? Sometimes it tells me if your in Canada or South America…just for fun. Also if you would like tell me what you think about this blog.)

Thanks everyone!!!
J

This is me and my “lil” cousin the groom lol…if u know me u can see the pain in my face…but I wouldn’t have missed it for the world….it was still fun and I stayed in my 4 1/2″ heels the whole time lol 😜! (I also ended up in the bed for 3 days after…..whew, it’s like Beyonce says..pretty hurts 👠💅👠👠)