A little bit about me….

I’m a JW, married mother of three. My husband is my Breath, my life, my King, my soul, my heart ❤️. My three children are my actual heartbeats and complete me. JD-22, ZD-16, & my baby ZR-14. (I also have a nephew & two nieces who are my little baby heartbeats💓) ….I’ve decided to take a break from my pity party and focus on my health and the love of my family.

Oh yeah I can’t forget my other “babies” Sophie is my spoiled little dog 🐶 and Rozay is my grand puppy who is extra spoiled too LOL!

I was doing good when I blogged about my health before so here we go….I tend to get into a depression rut, which leads to discouragement and then leads to chocolates…..and lots of them. (Shhh it’s our secret don’t tell my hubby about my stash lol 😜)

Thank you for coming with me on this personal journey. Thanks so much for your support.

J

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Breaking up is so hard to do…..

I’ve loved you for so long….we have this terrible love/hate relationship and I can’t do it anymore… I wrote you a letter a few weeks back but somehow I let you wine & dine me back into this terrible relationship. You beat me, you kick me, you mock me and you make me hate myself at times…this relationship has to end now!!! I just can’t do it anymore!! I do know that if I stay in this relationship one day you ARE going to kill me, and I have too much to live for..

This relationship is a typical example of domestic violence…..the sad thing about it…it’s with food.

(I actually wrote this last week but didn’t post it…thought I’d share, maybe it will encourage someone else too…please know I’m in no way joking about domestic violence! Me and my doctor talked about this vicious cycle that people with eating problems go through & she likened it to an abusive boyfriend and that’s when I wrote this….)

J

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Can you relate?

My heart is heavy…

This isn’t a post today about weight, it’s about the tragedy that happened today in an elementary school where more than 20 people lost their lives today…

I’m praying for everyone who has been affected by this needless crime!! I don’t know how a 20 year old could kill his parents and then children….why, why, why???

So senseless and violent! So for anyone in the cyber world who reads this, please be loving and forgiving to one another…if someone cuts you off driving…it’s ok, if someone steps on your shoes….it’s ok, children if your parents say no to something you really, really want…it’s ok, parents if your having a hard time paying the bills…it’s ok.

Whatever we are going through…it’s ok…our lives do have value so never feel like its ok to take a life…even if its your own…IT WILL BE OK!!!

I live in Colorado and we have had some of the most senseless crimes; Columbine, and the aurora movie shootings and others…and I ask myself why!? Then I realize…..these really are the last days….

My prayers are with mankind!

J

(Edit: I include the families in china as well and any other countries!!)

First 10lbs down!!!

So yesterday was my weigh in day and I’ve officially past the 10lbs mark…actually, I’ve lost 11 whoooo hooooo!! (From my heaviest weight I’m actually down 25, but lost the 11 in a month on Optifast & exercise). I can’t tell you how good it feels to step on that scale and see it go down, it’s so encouraging to see how my hard work is paying off… So having said that I’ve decided to show some of my before pictures and my now pictures….sigh, this is very hard for me to see and to show, but maybe it will encourage others…please be kind 🙂

Also the pictures are actually 25lbs ago, and ugh. Lol

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The first 2 are my before and the last 2 I just took..I tried to wear the same dress to show my weight loss…you can at least see it in my face, I hope lol 🙂 and yes I know I look tired.

(Sorry cousin I couldn’t cut you out of the picture.)

Got some news about my Diabetes

Hello all I got some great news today…I don’t need to be on insulin anymore!!!! Whoo hoooo…me and my wonderful nurse practically did the happy dance over the phone! As I told you guys I had actually forgotten about my diabetes I wasn’t kidding…I haven’t even checked my blood or did my insulin in over 2 months….I decided I was going to change my attitude about food.

One thing that really helped me was the fact that I became a vegan 8 months ago but I was still eating poorly as a vegan..too many carbs!! I did lose 14 pounds on my own before I joined Med Fit, but I realized (and talked to my doctor about it) if I could get the weight off quick that would really help my diabetes.

I just want to let anyone know if your dealing with your weight or diabetes, you can get through this…it’s like one of my favorite passages:

And this too, shall pass

You have to decide for yourself to put you first…it’s ok. As parents we always want to take care of our kids first or our spouse, maybe even our parents…but now it’s time to take a look at the person in the mirror and make them a priority.

My first suggestion is for you to go see your doctor, find out what your A1C is and then ask for all the information you can get…I know at Kaiser you can attend classes, web help, pamphlets and you get your own diabetes team and you have wonderful nurses like mine named Rebekah (she is so understanding & encouraging).

And we circle back around to what we all need; support. Don’t worry, you CAN do it! Nothing should hold us back from being the best we can be!! Set some goals, maybe small, like no soda, or l will walk 3xs a week for 30 minutes. Whatever it is let’s start striving to reach some goals. I’ll start with mine & you can do the same or make your own…and since I know my doctor is going to ask me tomorrow anyway I might as well have them lined up lol.

1. I will exercise at least 3xs this week but the goal is for 5.
2. I will take 15 minutes a day and just reflect, meditate, or journal.
3. I will lose 2 pounds this week. (Hopefully more but let’s just see lol)

(Got this great idea from another blogger named No fries for 365, his name is Jason & he’s awesome check out his blog)

In closing I want to say in total I’ve lost 23lbs, soo if I get the next 2 and make it to 25…I’ll share some pics of me…lol. I may even tell you my weight. So anyway & as always 1-1,000 pounds, we can do it!!

J