What’s been up with me…..And you?

Wow, I haven’t even posted at all this year…..lol..

Just joking……I hope you all enjoyed and had a good time with your friends and families this past holiday season. I don’t celebrate because I’m a JW but I did enjoy my family being home and hanging out.

I haven’t posted in awhile because I’m lazy I simply haven’t been in the mood. After suffering from my surgery way back in April…… I’m still in PAIN!! Aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwhhhhh (sorry for screaming)

It seems crazy to think I’m still in so much pain from this. (In case you missed it or forgot. I had a subcutaneous defibrillator “installed” orimplanted” with some crazy, stupid & ridiculous a new device that was supposed to be less invasive because the leads didn’t have to be implanted directly in my heart)

Ha!! The old procedure would have given me one scar. This scam so called new technology gave me 3 huge, ugly, painful scars. He also did something to my collarbone, it hurts sooooooooo bad! Have you ever broke a bone…? Remember the pain and sensitivity that comes with it in cold weather……ugh, yeah…..that’s how it feels.

I’m going to show you what I’ve been living with…..Forgive my mad face….and yes I have on makeup Lol!!

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They're red because they're angry...And... I have an even larger one on my left side/breast...

Maybe people will stop questioning if I’m lazy or not trying hard enough or something….ugh some times folks act like it’s all in my mind and I should just push through…..ahh….nah!!
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Why in the world would anybody want to live a life like this? As I’ve been writing this post it’s taking me over 3 day’s because I pretty much slept for 2 whole days. Please believe ya girl here hates it!! I want to be out in my ministry, shopping, seeing movies and hanging with the girls but I just can’t do it. I don’t have the energy and I get tired of explaining it to people.(Reminder: I have cardiomyopathy, heart failure, diabetes, sleep apnea and fibromyalgia) I’m not telling you for anyone to feel sorry for me, just a reminder that there are many illnesses you can’t see!! That’s why people always say “But you don’t look sick, you look good.”

Here’s my answer to that….hehe

I would look much worse than this w/o my beautiful makeup lol

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Anywhoooooo, I am going to keep fighting through the pain and get back to life. I’m going to eat better, gotta take baby steps walk a little and drink lots of detox water this week. If you or someone you know is on a journey to a healthier lifestyle please join me. What are you going to do this week?

I will keep you informed of my progresses!!

J.

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My new journey and adventures πŸ˜Š

When I first started this blog it was to help me with my weight loss, and then gain, then loss and everything in the middle. LOL!! (Y’all know how it is…lol..don’t leave me on this roller-coaster alone!!)

Now I just want to share ME and all I go through…with my health, my emotions, my likes! my dislikes, my family, my faith and just me.

A day in the life of a diabetic……and what it’s like to live with heart failure. Also learning to live with this new defibrillator. (So far it’s been a nightmare….but I’ll bore you with those details later )πŸ˜œπŸ˜‚

One day I may post about makeup, or clothes. Next day I may share a recipe I found and loved….maybe post 2 or 40 a day…..😱😱😱 (j/k) or a few days later an update on my health….(yes you can tell I have issues LOL). Sooooooooooo if you want to come on this adventure/journey with me…Let’s Go!!!

Me sending out kisses πŸ’‹πŸ’‹

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I can be so silly at times πŸ˜‚.

Silly me lol πŸ’‹πŸ’‹

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My Ice Cube Mean Face look lol

NOTE: I write this as my personal journal but my only hope is that it can touch one person. If you know of anyone who’s going through ……well…..ummm…….LIFE. Please share this blog with them, or if you enjoy it. I thank whoever reads this, even if it’s one person 😍

Please follow & share…. Thanks guys!!

Got some news about my Diabetes

Hello all I got some great news today…I don’t need to be on insulin anymore!!!! Whoo hoooo…me and my wonderful nurse practically did the happy dance over the phone! As I told you guys I had actually forgotten about my diabetes I wasn’t kidding…I haven’t even checked my blood or did my insulin in over 2 months….I decided I was going to change my attitude about food.

One thing that really helped me was the fact that I became a vegan 8 months ago but I was still eating poorly as a vegan..too many carbs!! I did lose 14 pounds on my own before I joined Med Fit, but I realized (and talked to my doctor about it) if I could get the weight off quick that would really help my diabetes.

I just want to let anyone know if your dealing with your weight or diabetes, you can get through this…it’s like one of my favorite passages:

And this too, shall pass

You have to decide for yourself to put you first…it’s ok. As parents we always want to take care of our kids first or our spouse, maybe even our parents…but now it’s time to take a look at the person in the mirror and make them a priority.

My first suggestion is for you to go see your doctor, find out what your A1C is and then ask for all the information you can get…I know at Kaiser you can attend classes, web help, pamphlets and you get your own diabetes team and you have wonderful nurses like mine named Rebekah (she is so understanding & encouraging).

And we circle back around to what we all need; support. Don’t worry, you CAN do it! Nothing should hold us back from being the best we can be!! Set some goals, maybe small, like no soda, or l will walk 3xs a week for 30 minutes. Whatever it is let’s start striving to reach some goals. I’ll start with mine & you can do the same or make your own…and since I know my doctor is going to ask me tomorrow anyway I might as well have them lined up lol.

1. I will exercise at least 3xs this week but the goal is for 5.
2. I will take 15 minutes a day and just reflect, meditate, or journal.
3. I will lose 2 pounds this week. (Hopefully more but let’s just see lol)

(Got this great idea from another blogger named No fries for 365, his name is Jason & he’s awesome check out his blog)

In closing I want to say in total I’ve lost 23lbs, soo if I get the next 2 and make it to 25…I’ll share some pics of me…lol. I may even tell you my weight. So anyway & as always 1-1,000 pounds, we can do it!!

J

Hmmm how did I forget my diabetes?

Soo I’m really a bone head…I seriously forgot about my diabetes & taking care of it. (I know how the heck do you forget a disease like that??). How did I remember….my feet!

Since I’ve been being a good girl and working out……..well who are we kidding y’all know its from my working it the other night in those heels. πŸ™‚ but seriously I was running (ok ok jogging) on the treadmill last night & I noticed my big toe was hurting really bad & my blister still hadn’t healed from 2 weeks ago so I had to call Kaiser because it hit me…your a diabetic dummy & you have to protect your feet.

Well I went in and have blisters on both feet and she told me to rest my feet and not wear heels for 2 weeks…WHAT??? I love my heels, they make me feel thin and tall and gorgeous!!! Sigh***** oh well I will be obedient and where my old lady shoes 😦 I also have to just walk and not run when I’m working out.

Soooooooo of course there is a lesson here (thought you were going to get away without one huh). We have to walk (go slow in our lifestyle journey, this isn’t a diet or temporary) and not try to run (do things that are unhealthy) to our goals. If we lose a pound a week or maybe we hit a plateau in our workout, that’s ok because we are still moving our bodies, not eating junk and making a conscience decision to change. I would love to lose 5lbs a week, but I’m happy with the 2 I achieved this week….and I hope each of you are happy with your small or large accomplishments.

As always, 1 to 1,000 pounds we can do it!! (By the way, if you do have diabetes please make sure you are watching your blood glucose levels…when you exercise & lose weight it can affect you so be sure to stay close to your medical team.)

J

(Oh yeah I got 3 shots today!!! OUCH!!!!, just wanted sympathy) πŸ˜‰