What’s been up with me…..And you?

Wow, I haven’t even posted at all this year…..lol..

Just joking……I hope you all enjoyed and had a good time with your friends and families this past holiday season. I don’t celebrate because I’m a JW but I did enjoy my family being home and hanging out.

I haven’t posted in awhile because I’m lazy I simply haven’t been in the mood. After suffering from my surgery way back in April…… I’m still in PAIN!! Aaaaaaaaawwwwwwwhhhhh (sorry for screaming)

It seems crazy to think I’m still in so much pain from this. (In case you missed it or forgot. I had a subcutaneous defibrillator “installed” orimplanted” with some crazy, stupid & ridiculous a new device that was supposed to be less invasive because the leads didn’t have to be implanted directly in my heart)

Ha!! The old procedure would have given me one scar. This scam so called new technology gave me 3 huge, ugly, painful scars. He also did something to my collarbone, it hurts sooooooooo bad! Have you ever broke a bone…? Remember the pain and sensitivity that comes with it in cold weather……ugh, yeah…..that’s how it feels.

I’m going to show you what I’ve been living with…..Forgive my mad face….and yes I have on makeup Lol!!

 

They're red because they're angry...And... I have an even larger one on my left side/breast...

Maybe people will stop questioning if I’m lazy or not trying hard enough or something….ugh some times folks act like it’s all in my mind and I should just push through…..ahh….nah!!
 

Why in the world would anybody want to live a life like this? As I’ve been writing this post it’s taking me over 3 day’s because I pretty much slept for 2 whole days. Please believe ya girl here hates it!! I want to be out in my ministry, shopping, seeing movies and hanging with the girls but I just can’t do it. I don’t have the energy and I get tired of explaining it to people.(Reminder: I have cardiomyopathy, heart failure, diabetes, sleep apnea and fibromyalgia) I’m not telling you for anyone to feel sorry for me, just a reminder that there are many illnesses you can’t see!! That’s why people always say “But you don’t look sick, you look good.”

Here’s my answer to that….hehe

I would look much worse than this w/o my beautiful makeup lol

 

Anywhoooooo, I am going to keep fighting through the pain and get back to life. I’m going to eat better, gotta take baby steps walk a little and drink lots of detox water this week. If you or someone you know is on a journey to a healthier lifestyle please join me. What are you going to do this week?

I will keep you informed of my progresses!!

J.

 

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