It was my plan to start blogging again this year so I did all this research and bought all these courses to help me get started again….. I wanted to share my adventures in this world as a woman in her forties who loves makeup and fashion and how despite my health problems I still can keep it cute lol 😝. Unfortunately, looking cute has been the last thing on my mind. Being responsible for 4 new little ones has been extremely hard. I have 3 of my own kids that I’ve pretty much raised…….. my baby girl just turned 18 😫😫 on January 9th and she’s going to graduate in June and then I’m done right…..wrong! My new babies are 3, 5 (just turned 5 on the 21st) 6 and 9…… I know….. I know. Pray 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽 for me please.
My life has been turned upside down and I’m really going through it…..I really hate to complain but I seriously need to vent and just scream 😱 (well on paper anyway). Due to circumstances out of my control, I’ve recently been given temporary custody of my three nieces and nephew. I love these kids with all of my heart ❤️ but I’m so overwhelmed.
One of my biggest issues is that it’s a major change and challenge in my home. We went from a family of four (where everyone pretty much did their own thing every day and night) to a family of eight overnight…. it’s been crazy to say the least. Now we have homework, home cooked meals,
I’m literally slaving over the stove for them, bath time and playing referee between everyone. I really have to depend on my family to help me out. Without their help there’s no way I could even try this. So big shoutout to Zariah and Zamia and my hubby ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ I pray everyday for their sanity as well…even our dog has had to make some changes. (Not that he minds at all lol).
Anyway…….I’m still in heart failure (18yrs) and dealing with all my other health issues…… I know certain people always thought that I was sleeping a lot because I’m lazy but the reality is that I’m sick….. Congestive Heart Failure, Cardiomyopathy, Diabetes, Fibromyalgia and a few smaller ones….. (and it’s truly a blessing that I don’t look the way I feel, but then it’s deceiving because I’m always trying to be cute lol 😂…… I mean, who wants to look sick??). The truth of the matter is that I’m very stressed out and it’s not good for my health but there’s nothing I can do…. my anxiety levels rise so high when I think about them going into foster care or being separated…..so that’s not even an option!! Family has to take care of family ❤️.
It is such a huge responsibility to raise someone else’s children…. especially when the children have special needs that you’ve never dealt with… My nephew (the 9yr old) has ADHD and man……..let me tell you…..that condition is no joke. He is on medication for it but the pills don’t last long and when they start to wear off his impulse control is null and void. He’s always getting into something and to say it’s nerve wracking is literally to say the least….smh. The girls are definitely much easier but they each have their own issues as well and let’s just keep it real…they’re toddlers and what do toddlers do? EVERYTHING 🤦🏽♀️….they fight, argue, cry and throw tantrums… all the time. Oh yeah…..can’t forget this…they all eat like four big linebackers playing for the Denver Broncos 😂😂. Don’t get me wrong for the most part they are all great children with awesome personalities. Its just that when you have to deal with those new personalities 24/7 times four people it can be overwhelming. Although I must say to hear them say “I love you aunty” and give me big hugs and kisses…..those moments are priceless.
So in closing I guess I’m just reintroducing me and my family to you again……I’m going to be sharing my adventures with my new family and managing everything with my health. I hope my adventures can be encouraging and upbuilding for those who are reading my blog….please follow and share if you enjoyed this post.
Until next time…..
A beautiful mother of four beautiful children… My condolences to her family and friends and many loved ones. As a woman over 40 who deals with so many health issues her death really hits home for me…. we’ve all read that she had pneumonia for a few weeks and wasn’t getting any better and maybe just maybe if she had went back sooner she would still be here….no one knows for sure. 😔
No one has said exactly what she died from but I want to take this opportunity to remind all of us to be advocates for our health. If something doesn’t feel right please go get it checked out and make sure that you’re heard!! Especially as mothers….we make sure our babies are well taken care of but sometimes we forget about us….
(I am definitely not a model I just wanted to try to recreate a picture of this beautiful woman.)
Revelations 21:3;4 – With that I heard a loud voice from the throne say: “Look! The tent of God is with mankind, and he will reside with them, and they will be his people. And God himself will be with them. 4 And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.”
Sooooo let me start by saying I’m so sorry to my followers and myself. 😦 I made a rookie dumb mistake tonight and hopefully I won’t have to pay for it on the scales Tuesday.
I went to a gathering to tell some dear friends goodbye as they are moving to California and this was their farewell party…I ate 4 of my products today before the gathering so I thought I would be ok…NOT!! Ok, the first thing is I’m a vegan and really don’t like to eat any type of animal product (those who are close to me can tell ya)…so when I saw there was some type of enchiladas I chuckled to myself & thought “whew they thought they was gonna get me.” Now I can’t tell you who the heck “they” is, but I thought I had won. Well I guess we had been there for about 2 hours and out of NO where (seriously freaky) I started smelling those enchiladas and I felt like Bruce from finding nemo!! Remember they were having their little “fish our are friends meeting” & then Dory’s nose bled and he smelled it and the other sharks tried to stop him and he said.. I’m Having Fish Tonight!!! Well that was me….I guess I just let myself get to hungry because all of a sudden I was having them enchiladas..with the cheese and meat!
Ugh!!! Ok just thinking about it makes my stomach hurt and actually after 3 bites I was done…but the fact that I would even allow myself to make a plate of it is very saddening to me. I’m working hard to get healthy and I can’t believe that I let myself down…so I decided to “work it off” while I was there..in 4 inch wedge heels.. Yeah I learned how to Wobble, and Cupid shuffle and whip my hair back and forth, all the time in my shoes!! That has to burn extra calories…right?? 🙂 just nod your head and agree with me please lol and thank you.
All in all I did have fun and I didn’t get too down on myself about my choices (except eating animal yuck) I realize there will be other Saturday nights where temptation will likely be, but if I plan accordingly I will be fine and so will you guys.
So for those of us on our weight loss journey this is what we need to do.
1. Plan ahead, one friend actually bought her own food to the function…and drink lots of water.
2. If you do eat something eat small portions and if possible eat a salad before your meal.
3. And this is a big one…if your not able to say no to the food right now, decline the invite. It’s ok If your going through a lot & your trying to watch what you eat & the temptation would be too much.
Remember how many minutes you have to walk/run on that treadmill just to burn 100 calories, and then think how in less than 60 seconds you can eat a candy bar, drink a pop, an grab a cookie. Those calories can total 500+. So it’s not worth it if you can’t control your portions and what your putting in your mouth.
So tonight I would like to leave you with a picture of my poor feet in them shoes lol!!!!(oh yeah another big lesson..don’t wear heels when your going to be on ya feet for 5hours!! Lol
Hope this helps at least one person to know..your not alone.