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I thought that blogging about my journey would make me feel better..I was wrong. :(. Sometimes I feel like applying what we were all taught when we were young..

Don’t say anything unless you have something nice to say

Sometimes it’s very hard to let complete strangers into my journey…well actually I don’t mind you guys..it’s friends and family that cause me stress….Why?

I’ll tell ya…most of them don’t even read my blog and if they do…well..let’s just say my feedback hasn’t been the most helpful or encouraging.

Sigh…..I’m really not feeling it these last few days. My health has been down which makes my moods down and then I go into a depression and guess what I want to do..eat. It’s such a battle trying to change your lifestyle. Especially, when those around you aren’t doing the same 😦 I get invited out to eat at least twice a week..sometimes I go..sometimes I stay home.

I was just hoping that by sharing my journey with people I could be inspiring and encouraging…but at the end of the day (ugh..been watching WAY to many reality shows lol) I was feeling more discouraged than anything.

BUT…..drum roll please……I’m not giving up!! I’m going to continue to blog (my goal is everyday) and to continue to be honest with myself and my 1 follower lol….this will help me to be accountable to me and you…as a matter of fact please email me if you notice I’m MIA (missing in action).

mzthang5280@yahoo.com

Just for fun I’d like to see who actually reads my blog (family & friends)….if you actually read this, please email me (or post it on my wall on FB) and tell me what your favorite animal is…lol…and if you don’t its ok…hopefully my journey will encourage at least one person on the road of wellness.

P.S. I have lost 17lbs so far…and I want to run in my first marathon next year :). More details to follow..

Nov 29

Fun suckers…don’t let em in!!

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Do you know what a fun sucker is?? It’s any one/thing/place/person that sucks the good energy out of ya… For me it’s Walmart,( 🙂 ) lol, negative people, draining (emotionally) and overly opinionated people.

It’s pretty hard to spot them….they come sometimes baring gifts, words of encouragement or even a great sale (this would be Walmart lol) when in the end all they do is bring you down and take your money (Walmart)….(they smile in ya face, all the time the want to take ya place…the backstabbers…hmmm who sang that song?? They got it right!!)

This is especially true when your trying to change your lifestyle…. People can think that they are being supportive but in reality they are sabotaging you….

If you know someone who has decided to become vegan (like me 🙂 ) give up dairy, white flour, bread or sugar..or they want to run a marathon, have weight loss surgery….or whatever….don’t tell them how you could never do that…tell them good job!!!!! It’s extremely hard to make changes….but not impossible!!!!

As my dirty little secret (my BFF) likes to always tell me…stay positive!! This may mean that you need to get rid of some fun suckers…and find some fulfilling friendships!!

Nov 27

2 steps forward, 5 steps back

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It’s been a long time since I’ve been motivated to blog 😦 . It’s all because I fell far off the wagon!! It’s almost like I’m afraid of success! Last week was my best weight loss week and then I let life consume me….I once again forgot to take care of me!

I don’t celebrate holidays so I can’t even blame that…it was just being home with the hubby & the kids….then my sister went into labor and I was up all night, (seems like for 2 nights) and that really threw me off my game. Don’t get me wrong I’m over the moon having a new little niece but I’m exhausted!!

No exercise in the last week, no sleep and eating junk…ugh!! So now it’s time to face the music, I have my appointment tomorrow & I know it’s not going to be good…

I did it to myself but I’m holding me accountable sooooooooo here’s too getting back on track!! Also, here’s a picture of my new niece…a beautiful blessing!!! 🙂

Nov 20

Get up & move something :)

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Just wanted to write a quick post about exercising….YES (ummm heck no) is what your thinking lol! I don’t know what part of the world you live in, I live in beautiful Colorado (what about them Denver Broncos!!! 🙂 ) and lately the weather has been beautiful and perfect to get up and get out in!!

So I was thinking of people who may be dealing with issues with weather…or heck maybe you just don’t want to go to a gym…I realize that it may be intimidating to some of us who aren’t in the best of shape to go walk on a treadmill on 2.0 when the person next to you is running on 10.0!!!

I’ve felt this way for a long time, so I started buying video game workouts…check these out:

I’ve had all of these gems and wasn’t really using them…well not anymore!! I love the dance & Zumba games!! (You cant tell me I’m not Fergie playing the BEP’s experience lol!!!) They are so fun and everybody in the family can do it, they also have great work out DVD’s you can buy or check out from your local library and if that’s not enough….they even offer fitness on cable!!! :-0

I know…who knew right 🙂 so no more excuses…lets get out there and move something people!!!

Nov 18

Another tempting weekend

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Were you tempted this weekend?? I sure was….boy I tell ya, the smell of food has really been getting to me lately. Probably because I’ve been surrounded by delicious food all weekend!!

Every week when I meet with my doctor at the end of the session she always asks me about what challenges I may be having for the week…I sat there and thought about it and my answer..LIFE!!

Everyday is a stressful day for eating healthy…they have soooo many commercials and ads telling us about cookies, cinna buns, candy, burgers, happy meals, blah, blah, blah!!! How come we don’t have more ads about eating healthy & exercising…..no wonder we are all so unhealthy!!!

Anyway…..I guess I kind of went off my topic which is trying to keep remaining healthy on the weekends when the rest of your family is enjoying their ~~delicious~~ disgusting, ~~mouth watering~~, stomach turning, food!! So as always it was difficult for me this weekend…but I endured!!!! :). I had to actually take some pictures to show everyone what I passed up (maybe this will help someone on Thursday). 🙂

I didn’t eat anything!! I must say it was difficult but I prayed (of course) about it and then I focused on my health and how eating all of those things contributed to my weight gain…I could have ate a salad (that’s what I brought to the gathering) but I decided to stick to my plan and only consume my optifast products…I felt so good, I focused on me & how I was feeling about getting healthy… So this is what I had..

The best thing about it….I did it by choice…my choice!! I didn’t feel peer pressure to eat, I didn’t feel like an outsider eating my peanut butter bar, I felt in control of my surroundings & my addiction!! Also, hearing how good I looked with my weight loss was a HUGE motivator!! Even if no one else were to say it…I say it to myself…it keeps me sane (lol) and focused….so as always, 1-1,000 pounds…we can do it!!

Nov 15

A dear John letter…to fat

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Hey everyone, I just read the best thing on Facebook…it was a dear John letter to fat!! I thought, heck yeah let’s tell this fat to hit the road jack!! (And don’t ya come back..no more, no, more, no more!!!). Can’t remember who sings that but BIG shout out to them!! Lol!! So here is my letter…

Dear ~~John~~ (Fat),

It’s over!!! I’m really, really, really tired of the way you have been mistreating me for over 10 years now! I’m not sure how our relationship began…I think it was because after having my 3 child, my body went into congestive heart failure. I was scared, thought I was going to die, didn’t want to leave my husband with my three babies, all of whom I love more than life!! So at first I did really good and took care of myself, then they started putting me on all of these meds and I thought

“Hey, I can live my life, these medications are going to take care of everything”

Humph!! Not a great plan but its the one I chose, then I started eating, and eating and eating and I became depressed, discouraged and disgusted!!

Sigh***** that’s where our love affair began, we started dancing in circles..I would see you and get sad, so I would eat….then I would be sad…why? Because I ate…a terrible dance!!

Well I’m officially telling you..THE PARTY IS OVA!!! I’ve traded in those dancing shoes for some tennis shoes and I’m running…literally!! I’ve decided this relationship has got to go, all this time I thought you were comforting me and all you were doing was killing me!

So today I say goodbye ~~John~~ Fat, I am an incredible woman with so much potential…I can not deny myself my own love anymore..you see I realize I didn’t actually love me, just you…Not anymore, my body is a temple and from now on I will treat it as such!!

Sincerely,

P.S. if you don’t believe me check out my treadmill picture!! Deuces!!!

(Whew, that felt good to write!! Thanks for letting me share guys & gals) 🙂

Nov 13

Survived a stressful week…and no cake!

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I’ve been dealing with a lot of issues lately and really haven’t had much to say…..well nothing really positive. Then it hit me! I had a baby shower for my sister here at my home and I didn’t eat any cake!! 🙂

I did nibble here and there on carrots and olives & a tiny piece of a sandwich, but I didn’t eat the junk!! I realize I need to celebrate all of my accomplishments even if they seem small at the time. I’ve been dealing with an enormous amount of stress the last week and I’ve held my own!! As I’ve told you before ice cream was my comforter but I’m actually learning how to cope with the stress without food.

How have I done it….PRAYER, first and foremost!!!! Then I really leaned on my support system, went for walks and kept my mind occupied. It also helped that I didn’t have any junk food in the house and with my car still in the shop, I couldn’t just go get something.

So lessons learned….

1. Pray about your struggles and have faith that you can over come your food addictions…
2. I can get through trials without food..
3. Don’t keep junk food in the house….
4. Definitely have some support & reach out to them!
5. Celebrate me….why, because I love me no matter how much I weigh.

Nov 08

It never stops…..

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So I guess I was doing to good or something because I had the worst day yesterday. I won’t bore you with all the details but the highlight or actually lowlight was when me and my daughter got stranded by McDonald’s…ugh of all places!!

We went to our meeting last night (hubby & other daughter were sick) and on the way home I stopped to grab them something to eat…it was about 10pm and I had a bar in my bag (no more getting caught w/o my optifast) so I ate that and I was ok. Then my car breaks down and it’s cold, my daughters legs are freezing so I give her my sweater to keep warm…hubby comes tries to get it home and I couldn’t turn the wheel or use the break..it was all beyond STrESSFUL!!!!

To top it off my stomach was hurting soooo bad (thx oolong tea) and I had to go to the bathroom and it was just UGH!!!! So I did eat a few fries while I was waiting but they were so gross!! Now I’m dealing with the stress and drama still and I want something salty and crunchy sooo bad! Good thing (I guess!)The car is broke and I don’t have anything here I want, or I would have probably went somewhere and ate something bad.

So as I sit here and type this I’m praying for strength to endure….just wanted to share.

Nov 07

First 10lbs down!!!

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So yesterday was my weigh in day and I’ve officially past the 10lbs mark…actually, I’ve lost 11 whoooo hooooo!! (From my heaviest weight I’m actually down 25, but lost the 11 in a month on Optifast & exercise). I can’t tell you how good it feels to step on that scale and see it go down, it’s so encouraging to see how my hard work is paying off… So having said that I’ve decided to show some of my before pictures and my now pictures….sigh, this is very hard for me to see and to show, but maybe it will encourage others…please be kind 🙂

Also the pictures are actually 25lbs ago, and ugh. Lol

The first 2 are my before and the last 2 I just took..I tried to wear the same dress to show my weight loss…you can at least see it in my face, I hope lol 🙂 and yes I know I look tired.

(Sorry cousin I couldn’t cut you out of the picture.)

Nov 05

Got some news about my Diabetes

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Hello all I got some great news today…I don’t need to be on insulin anymore!!!! Whoo hoooo…me and my wonderful nurse practically did the happy dance over the phone! As I told you guys I had actually forgotten about my diabetes I wasn’t kidding…I haven’t even checked my blood or did my insulin in over 2 months….I decided I was going to change my attitude about food.

One thing that really helped me was the fact that I became a vegan 8 months ago but I was still eating poorly as a vegan..too many carbs!! I did lose 14 pounds on my own before I joined Med Fit, but I realized (and talked to my doctor about it) if I could get the weight off quick that would really help my diabetes.

I just want to let anyone know if your dealing with your weight or diabetes, you can get through this…it’s like one of my favorite passages:

And this too, shall pass

You have to decide for yourself to put you first…it’s ok. As parents we always want to take care of our kids first or our spouse, maybe even our parents…but now it’s time to take a look at the person in the mirror and make them a priority.

My first suggestion is for you to go see your doctor, find out what your A1C is and then ask for all the information you can get…I know at Kaiser you can attend classes, web help, pamphlets and you get your own diabetes team and you have wonderful nurses like mine named Rebekah (she is so understanding & encouraging).

And we circle back around to what we all need; support. Don’t worry, you CAN do it! Nothing should hold us back from being the best we can be!! Set some goals, maybe small, like no soda, or l will walk 3xs a week for 30 minutes. Whatever it is let’s start striving to reach some goals. I’ll start with mine & you can do the same or make your own…and since I know my doctor is going to ask me tomorrow anyway I might as well have them lined up lol.

1. I will exercise at least 3xs this week but the goal is for 5.
2. I will take 15 minutes a day and just reflect, meditate, or journal.
3. I will lose 2 pounds this week. (Hopefully more but let’s just see lol)

(Got this great idea from another blogger named No fries for 365, his name is Jason & he’s awesome check out his blog)

In closing I want to say in total I’ve lost 23lbs, soo if I get the next 2 and make it to 25…I’ll share some pics of me…lol. I may even tell you my weight. So anyway & as always 1-1,000 pounds, we can do it!!