A way back to happiness

After the tragedy in Newton last week I fell into a depression….it was such a sad tragedy and I felt so completely helpless and my heart literally ached for those families. After much prayer I can say I’m feeling better…

Unfortunately, I kind of went back to some bad ways and looked for comfort in food. Of course I didn’t find any in it and it actually made me feel worse. Stomach cramps, bloating, gas and nausea..ugh so not worth it!! My fibromyalgia was inflamed and I was in pain, unable to sleep and irritable.

So one night morning at 3am I began to write in my journal and I just kept writing and writing and then I said a prayer…then I was able to fall asleep and reflect.

Food does not comfort me, GOD does!! I’m a very spiritual woman and I draw my strength from the bible….a beautiful letter written to me by my Father, and it hits me…the bible says not to “over eat, or be overly anxious”. Which is exactly what I’ve always done….sadly. 😦

So the last few days I’ve been drawing my strength and determination from the bible…and I’ve been able to get back to eating right….the kids are on their winter break so lots of temptation everywhere but all I’ve had besides my optifast is fruit & popcorn(my kryptonite lol).

We went to the mall yesterday and I went into a regular skinny women’s shop and I tried on some jeans….and they fit 🙂 I actually had to have a moment dropped it like it was hot!!! Lol in the dressing room….a size 12!!!

Oh yeah I’m on my way…..where? Back to happiness!

J

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One thought on “A way back to happiness

  1. Like you – I was taken back with the shooting too. After all, I have a peanut almost that age. A friend posted a picture of Jesus with 3 kids laughing and crawling on him. Then a quote, “Don’t worry or feel bad for the kids – I got them covered. Please pray for their families instead.”
    It was a little comforting to picture the children in a happy, non-violent and peaceful place.
    Maybe that will help you a little too!

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